So it’s my pre birthday weekend and I’ve already spent too much money shopping today.
(obviously NOT my shopping. I wish!)
Always fun though, isn’t it!
So, as you may or may not know, I have some ‘issues’ with anxiety. I don’t like to say suffer, but you know what I mean. Anyway, it’s reared its ugly head again recently, and I think I know why. New job, adjusting, not feeling in control and being a perfectionist. Not the best combination. I also have no idea how to relax without getting bored, so mix that all together and you can imagine the outcome!
HOWEVER, the GOOD news is that following my CBT last year, I knew how to cope with the sudden onset. I’m not ashamed to say I cried, a lot, but I also talked to friends, and my wonderful man, about what was going on. It took a while to figure things out in my head. I never seem to have the answer when I need it! But I got there in the end and after a couple of days of feeling off my game, and a fair amount of sleep, I can say I feel a lot better.
I don’t like feeling that way. I can’t imagine anyone does. I’d just like to be very honest and say that it DOES get better. Yes it takes time, but it DOES get better. We all have our bad days, and those ‘I want to stay in bed and hide away’ moments. There’s nothing wrong with that, as long as you remember that tomorrow could be so much better.
Right now things are good, and it would be great if they could stay that way, but we all know life can be truly messed up!
For now though, happy thoughts are the way forward especially as it’s my birthday on Monday. WOOO!