Happy Easter everyone!
I’m going to start this post by saying I’m feeling really happy right now. I’ve had such a relaxing day and really enjoyed myself, for the first time in ages. The main reason it’s been so good is down to spending time with my family and laughing lots. Simple but pretty perfect. I think I need more of this!
So yeah, today has been a good day!
Saturday’s training session
Yesterday I did my usual punishment session:
High incline press (pronated) – 5 sets of 12 reps, 1 at 5kg, 2 at 6kg, 2 at 7kg
Supinated row – 5 sets of 12 reps at 40kg
Leg extension – 5 sets of 12 reps, 1 at 25kg, 2 at 27.5kg, 2 at 30kg
Tricep pushdown – 5 sets of 12 reps at 5kg
Standing calf raise – 5 sets, 2 of 12 reps, 3 of 15 reps
Rowing machine sprints (60 seconds) and boxing combinations – 6 sets through
253m, 249m, 245m, 231m, 229m, 241m
10 times through of boxing combination
My Mindful Pledge to myself
So I had another CBT session this week. As I’ve had an OK couple of weeks I didn’t think there was much to talk about, but once we get talking something usually comes up. As I have such a hard time relaxing, as in I don’t know how to relax, so my therapist asked me if I had heard of Mindfulness as he thought it might be worth me checking out. From what I’ve managed to learn so far, mindfulness is to do with ‘being in the moment’ rather than thinking about 10 things at once and rushing from here to there, concentrating on what you are doing at that exact moment instead of worrying about what to make for tea and what time you need to be up tomorrow morning so can’t stay up too late to watch that programme on TV.
I think this is going to take a fair bit of practice! I’m going to do a bit of reading up on it first, BUT as the title of this post states, I am pledging to be mindful.
I’ve done a fair bit of reflecting over the past few days as I’ve had a break from work, and just thinking about the changes in me since this time last year. It’s the simple things that have made me realise just how far I’ve come. For instance, the other day I went for a walk, because I wanted to! I actually wanted to go for a walk. I know that sounds ridiculous, but last year I would have made excuses. I would have actually hated the idea of going out because I was in a vicious circle of feeling depressed and tired so I stayed in, hiding away from the real world.
Hearing from my family how much of a change they can see in me is such a boost. Knowing they’d support me no matter what happens is obviously a real comfort, but to see their reaction to the positive changes in me makes all the hard work worthwhile.
I’m actually excited to see where I’ll be in six months time. I’m extremely competitive with myself, even when I’m having a bad day, so no matter how many bad days I have I am NOT giving up!