I really didn’t realise I could waffle on that much…!
I think quite a lot has changed since my first post:
It was all about food! What I could no longer have, and what I was going to be eating instead. In a way nothing has changed. I’m still obsessed with food, and still miss certain things:
However, I am so much more aware of the affect food has on me, how addictive some foods are, and how great it feels to get over those cravings (I’m still working on that one!).
Another thing I have learnt in the past few months is the importance of goal setting: http://fightingthefear2013.blogspot.co.uk/2013/07/wednesday-24th-july-part-2.html
I was initially very negative about goal setting. I didn’t have time to prepare for it, which I know is kind of the point, and I like being prepared. However, meeting or even smashing goals is a great feeling. I’m already on to my second set and working on demolishing them all. It will probably take time, but I am (very slowly) learning patience!
I think what has surprised me the most in the past few months is my total attitude change towards training: http://fightingthefear2013.blogspot.co.uk/2013/08/wednesday-7th-august.html
I never thought I would even set foot in a gym, let alone enjoy it! In fact, I’ve had to miss the gym tonight and I am really unhappy about it. I never thought I would be sad to miss a session!
I know I’ve had quite a few setbacks along the way: the numerous hormonal issues, the PCOS, the potential depression….but I am determined to get through it all. A few months ago I wouldn’t have said that. I would have given in to the negative thoughts and ‘wallowed’.
I have met some truly fantastic and inspirational people since I started this whole new experience, and I am so grateful for all of their support and encouragement. It makes a huge difference knowing there are people out there who are prepared to listen, and most importantly are happy to.
Speaking of awesome people, my personal trainer, Chris, deserves a huge mention here. He has been so supportive and enthusiastic over the past few months, and I am extremely lucky to have him helping me. I had such a negative, and probably stereotypical, view of personal trainers before I met him, all of which was completely wrong. He has never shouted at me, never put me down, never done or said anything to make me feel bad. He has only ever been positive, realistic and enthusiastic. He has given me the exercise bug. He has listened to me complain, moan, put myself down, and swear (a lot!), and never once made me feel like I was overreacting. Having that objective input is a godsend.
We still have a long way to go, but there’s no way I’m giving up now, and even if I wanted to, I don’t think Chris would let. Another thing I am very grateful for.
Chris also writes a blog and has just written a fantastic post on happiness: http://chrismainpt.wordpress.com/2013/10/23/dont-worry-be-happy/
It really struck a chord with me as to be happy is what I want more than anything.
This is just another reason why I am so pleased I met Chris. He really does listen to what you say and looks at the best solution for you.
So, you must really want to get in touch with him now, and here’s how you can:
Chris Main: https://twitter.com/Coach_Mainer